Finally finally

Today I am feeling lazy, happy and lazyyyyy....

It's my leave day, yeays!
Well, after lazing in bed until 11am, I got up, but still refuse to get up completely.
Because my bed is damn comfortable lar.
Dunno what kind of brand this bed is, absolutely comfy. Cos not too hard and not too soft.
And it has got invisible hands to pull you to the bed, making you impossible to leave the bed.
That's why decided to revise in bed.
Bad decision, I know, but I don't care anyway.
I feel like I am living an Australian lifestyle.
Absolutely lazy!!!!

(yeay, but only for today. cos it's my off day.)

After that, spend the noon time lunching in front of tv, and laughing at the tv host, aunty lucy. he is damn funny.

In the afternoon, I finally made the trip to ICA to collect my passport.
It is cool lar. New biometric passport.
Had a short talk with the customer service officer.
She showed me a photo of her 2 boys.
Wah sey, she don't look like a mother.
Look young lor.
I must be like that also, if I ever have children.
Even no children or not married, also must be like that.

Reaching home, I watched tv abit, and eat my subway.
Sometimes when I watch tv, especially the couple shows, I like to observe what is it that makes a guy and a girl comes together.
Opposite attracts a lot, I realized.
She has something he doesn't has. She likes him.
He has something she doesn't has. He appreciates her.
They attract each other.
When I find my mr right, I want him to be funny, down-to-earth, and very protective.
Maybe it is just a female's instinct.
Maybe it is my instinct.

I rmbr coming across a young, innocent me when I was merely below 10 years old.
Father was clutching me and sister so tightly.
It was a lovely sight.
Nowadays, everytime I see him, he is always tired from all the work and he complains complains.
Sometimes, I pity him really.
But I don't know what to do.
Thank God really that he is still strong physically to work.
Perhaps even stronger than I thought he is.
Thank God one hundred times man!
Perhaps I just worry too much about him sometimes.
Never see him at home...


Anyways, in 2 months, I will finish my big exam hurdles and start looking for permanent.
Really hope to go into life science sales or some other things related to life science.
But I think I suck at sales... cannot lar...
Maybe I go do banking?
Dunno...
I should have just stick to life science degree no matter how tough initially.
Why so stupid take up a biz degree?
This is the most stupid mistake I ever make, and I don't ever want to make another stupid big mistake in my life again.

Means, I better find mr right, before I get married.
If not, I will marry mr wrong and suffer the rest of my life.
And also, I better work for something according to my personality fit and passion.
If not, I will suffer.

So, life goes on.
Mr right guy and right job is for me to discover.

And as for now, I need to study.
Boring yes. But I will go on.
Amy, you are one super persevering & diligent babe!
I am not a halfway give-up person. I will stick on.
No matter if I am discourage or bored.
I will go on, God is with me!

Family Day Out

Today father came over to cook and spend the day together.
He showed us the photos he took when he went to Jok-Jark (whatever the spelling).
I am glad I have a happy father!
A tall, chunky, very loud and good-looking one indeed! =)
We had a good lunch, following which I asked father for help in choosing a new table.
Actually me and mother could easily get it done ourselves.
But I just asked father along.
In the end, he gave all sorts of advice and all... and some jokes. Lol!
Goody...it is good to have a father around.
Although most of the time he is not around.
Missed my father figure really.
One day per week with a father.
Ok lar. Good enough.
Anyway, God is also my heavenly father.

Happenings

Yesterday was a good day.

Morning started with a round of interview at the Science Center.
First time in my life I had to wait 1 hour for the interviewers to come in.
Me and 4 other candidates waited for so long, and ended up chatting and became like long time friends. Haha!
The interviewers came in finally and the interview doesn't even seem like an interview at all... Just an introduction of the job scope.
And it lasted only 10 minutes? Crap.
Anyway, I got shortlisted. Yippee!

Later on in the evening, I had to sign the contract with Recruit Express, which represent Science Center.
I am really kind of glad as Science Center is a Science institution and is really where I would love to work in.

Evening was classes. And although I kind of don't enjoy the classes, I enjoy the friendship with Risa and Joelle. It kind of makes things much better. Mood gets so much better, really.

Even though lecturer was talking away, Ris and I were sms-ing away. How bad lar. But well, we haven't been catching up for ages.

After lecture, Joelle had to go to NTU, and so gave me a ride home. It was a long ride because we were kind of lost on the streets of Singapore, but we managed to find our way round finally. On the way back, we chatted a lot.
I really take my hats off Joelle. At 19 years old, she bought her own car. That really make my jaws drop.

So much for everything, I wanted to say sometimes, gals rule. Really.

But, I miss someone. It is not a girl.

In my life, I probably think of not more than 5 guys more than a day.
My God,
my own father,
and well,
him A (sensational),
him B (loved),
him C (well, good old chap).


Chuckles.

Whatever

If I am freeking mad, I seriously don't care if I am a christian or not.
You deserve to be scolded, that's it.

End of Blog

This whole blog is an emotional blog.
I think.

Sick of my blog.

The next blog I shall write...

Hmm...
Travel blog? Food blog? Exercise blog?

Since I went to Indonesia & Taiwan before, I should write a travel blog while I can.
Before dementia hits...

Fresh Start

Thought of closing blog for a couple of reasons, but decided to re-open blog...

For the past 7 days, my whole life flashes before me.
As though God dig up many things in my past and place it before Him.
He did a whole surgery on it, as I lay before Him in his hospital.
The opening process is faced with trembling as it is difficult to come face to face with some things about myself, but I willingly do it.
Knowing the importance of it and how great it is to be set free after that.
Also thanks to dear sisters who've encouraged me along the way.
And he did wonderful things.
I am set free! :D

Inner healing and Deliverance.
Throne of Jesus.
Power of the Holy Spirit.
The Authority of Christ.
What used to be mere intellectual concepts are as real to me as my 10 fingers before me now.

I have to testify.
I tell others too!
But as I am still in the process of surgery uncompleted, perhaps it's better and wiser that I leave the perfect timing to God.

Times that I thought, God why don't you use another person? I am not as perfect, or eloquent.
But I did not choose Him. He choose me.
An apple tree with many fruits.
Not my work, but his work.

---

Also, I thank God for the wonderful ladies who opened up their life during the group work.

Ca* is unforgettable.
Her humor, realness and passion for God.
50 years old.
White and grey hair.
Bickering with husband.
A husband who love her despite it all.
Husband is cool too.
Climb mountain at his age. :)

Kr* is so sweet.
A life that shows God can give a second chance despite mistakes and disobedience.
And God still blesses so much.
With adorable young Z* who is 1 year old.

Ve*'s life makes people's jaw drop.
Beautiful young lady but traumatic past.
But God still reaches her.

BT who is 'bu qi yan', but a woman of strength.

And many many.

I am so grateful to God for bringing all these people into my life that I might learn from their life.
It is divine.
And even for Je*y who was with me through it all, so that we share this experience together that no one else will have. Thank God for sisters. Thank God for Je*y.

Laughter

There is a difference between
Laughing at someone,
Laughing at a joke,
Laughing from the inside out,
Laughing at myself.
Whatever it is, laughter is good for the right reasons, I think.