Emotions, People, Decisions

I tell myself at the beginning of today that I shall just focus on studies alone.
Don't think about anything else at all!
And I remember the sms Lirong send me yesterday - Amy, don't think so much. Just focus on studies.

Easy to say... sometimes very hard to put into application.

Because, I realized I am born with emotions.
When something stir my heart, I will surely think about that thing.

Morning breakfast with Sharon
We talked about Toy Story 3 again.
I shared that I love the 3 peas in a pod from Toy Story...
She squealed! I got excited... And I thought about whether I should search for 3-peas-in-a-pod from the shopping center... maybe action city...
Think think...

Noon sms from father.
"Shall we meet for dinner?"
Okay, he misses us again.
Sure, will meet him for dinner. After all, he must be working so hard that he just wants to see us for the evening.
Why not...?
So, I think about father again...

Noon revision at Starbucks.
Sharon came after a while.
Broke the news that she is breaking up with Andy for good.
Heard about that a few years ago already.
Now it is really real.
I feel so sorry for Andy.
He is just too nice to sis... now this thing happens, I really is expecting Andy to break down... Sigh...
But seriously, it is better now or never.
Think about it, Andy and sis is intellectually so far apart.
It will be a huge mountain of problems if they got married.
Really.

I think about my own 'missing link' aka life partner as well.
Who? When?
I thought this person A is ok... until... I got negative feedback about him.
I thought that person B is ok... until... I got pissed / hurt by some comments / actions.
I thought maybe person C is better... until... I got tired of the 'waiting game'.
Think think.
Things seems so bleak sometimes.
I thought about those who are married, apparently happily.
But it is not really happily as well.
Sigh.
Life has to be better than this.

Midway through revision, I surfed across Shiyan's facebook.
And I thought about the 'decision' she announced a few days ago.
I thought about my 'decision' made a few days ago as well.
Is this really a good 'decision' made?
Should I go ahead with this decision or discard it?
Ponders.
Think think.


Evening time, I thought about person B again.
He's trying to get my attention? Mum says...
Really...?
But need to be so overwhelming or not?

Sighz....
See the long train of thoughts that flood through my mind in a single day.
If only I can stop thinking about all these issues... and start thinking about exams only...
If only I could!!!!
Urghhh!!!