Throne

MOrning woke up with this word ringing in my heads:

"Who is on the throne of my life?"

Remembering the words of Claudia when she spoke this a couple of weeks ago in service.
Although I will acknowledge Christ as the center of my life, how many times did other things take this throne?

Like when I place my agenda as of higher importance, then my agenda became my god.
When I place my relationships with others of higher importance than with my God, then my relationships with others became my god.
Or when I place my revision times above my time with God, my exams subtly also became my god.
When I place my own leisure times above my time with God, myself became my god.

Funny how easy it is to cloud God out of everyday life if not careful.
How easy it is to sing 'YOu are the center of my life', and then next moment, de-throne God with my own will.

It is so not easy to remember this 24/7...

Thinking about the dearest person I have living with me next room, I know she has never intended to have God in her life.
She doesn't need to because everyone always give in to her anyway.
She doesn't have a lack.
The truth is, I don't have a lack either.
But I want God in my life.
Not because so that my life will be more blessed.
But because I want to know God more.
I want to fall in love with God.
I want to know God's love, God's goodness, which never fails.