Family Day Out

Today father came over to cook and spend the day together.
He showed us the photos he took when he went to Jok-Jark (whatever the spelling).
I am glad I have a happy father!
A tall, chunky, very loud and good-looking one indeed! =)
We had a good lunch, following which I asked father for help in choosing a new table.
Actually me and mother could easily get it done ourselves.
But I just asked father along.
In the end, he gave all sorts of advice and all... and some jokes. Lol!
Goody...it is good to have a father around.
Although most of the time he is not around.
Missed my father figure really.
One day per week with a father.
Ok lar. Good enough.
Anyway, God is also my heavenly father.

Happenings

Yesterday was a good day.

Morning started with a round of interview at the Science Center.
First time in my life I had to wait 1 hour for the interviewers to come in.
Me and 4 other candidates waited for so long, and ended up chatting and became like long time friends. Haha!
The interviewers came in finally and the interview doesn't even seem like an interview at all... Just an introduction of the job scope.
And it lasted only 10 minutes? Crap.
Anyway, I got shortlisted. Yippee!

Later on in the evening, I had to sign the contract with Recruit Express, which represent Science Center.
I am really kind of glad as Science Center is a Science institution and is really where I would love to work in.

Evening was classes. And although I kind of don't enjoy the classes, I enjoy the friendship with Risa and Joelle. It kind of makes things much better. Mood gets so much better, really.

Even though lecturer was talking away, Ris and I were sms-ing away. How bad lar. But well, we haven't been catching up for ages.

After lecture, Joelle had to go to NTU, and so gave me a ride home. It was a long ride because we were kind of lost on the streets of Singapore, but we managed to find our way round finally. On the way back, we chatted a lot.
I really take my hats off Joelle. At 19 years old, she bought her own car. That really make my jaws drop.

So much for everything, I wanted to say sometimes, gals rule. Really.

But, I miss someone. It is not a girl.

In my life, I probably think of not more than 5 guys more than a day.
My God,
my own father,
and well,
him A (sensational),
him B (loved),
him C (well, good old chap).


Chuckles.

Whatever

If I am freeking mad, I seriously don't care if I am a christian or not.
You deserve to be scolded, that's it.

End of Blog

This whole blog is an emotional blog.
I think.

Sick of my blog.

The next blog I shall write...

Hmm...
Travel blog? Food blog? Exercise blog?

Since I went to Indonesia & Taiwan before, I should write a travel blog while I can.
Before dementia hits...

Fresh Start

Thought of closing blog for a couple of reasons, but decided to re-open blog...

For the past 7 days, my whole life flashes before me.
As though God dig up many things in my past and place it before Him.
He did a whole surgery on it, as I lay before Him in his hospital.
The opening process is faced with trembling as it is difficult to come face to face with some things about myself, but I willingly do it.
Knowing the importance of it and how great it is to be set free after that.
Also thanks to dear sisters who've encouraged me along the way.
And he did wonderful things.
I am set free! :D

Inner healing and Deliverance.
Throne of Jesus.
Power of the Holy Spirit.
The Authority of Christ.
What used to be mere intellectual concepts are as real to me as my 10 fingers before me now.

I have to testify.
I tell others too!
But as I am still in the process of surgery uncompleted, perhaps it's better and wiser that I leave the perfect timing to God.

Times that I thought, God why don't you use another person? I am not as perfect, or eloquent.
But I did not choose Him. He choose me.
An apple tree with many fruits.
Not my work, but his work.

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Also, I thank God for the wonderful ladies who opened up their life during the group work.

Ca* is unforgettable.
Her humor, realness and passion for God.
50 years old.
White and grey hair.
Bickering with husband.
A husband who love her despite it all.
Husband is cool too.
Climb mountain at his age. :)

Kr* is so sweet.
A life that shows God can give a second chance despite mistakes and disobedience.
And God still blesses so much.
With adorable young Z* who is 1 year old.

Ve*'s life makes people's jaw drop.
Beautiful young lady but traumatic past.
But God still reaches her.

BT who is 'bu qi yan', but a woman of strength.

And many many.

I am so grateful to God for bringing all these people into my life that I might learn from their life.
It is divine.
And even for Je*y who was with me through it all, so that we share this experience together that no one else will have. Thank God for sisters. Thank God for Je*y.

Laughter

There is a difference between
Laughing at someone,
Laughing at a joke,
Laughing from the inside out,
Laughing at myself.
Whatever it is, laughter is good for the right reasons, I think.

A change of hair for a change of mood

No mood to go for class...
Want to skip class...
But go home also boring.
Go class also boring.
So sucky!
So decided to cut hair...
Cut very very short.
Could be shorter, but decided to leave the bold step to the next time round.
Contemplated dying hair blonde, but can't.
I am supposed to work as part time tutor, so I can't scare my students.
Did brown blonde.
Okay, quite like it
Don't think it looks like hooker at all.
Probably a nerdy jap school girl maybe.
Whatever.

A change of hair, and a change of mood.

Why so bad mood oh my soul.
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God.
For I will yet praise Him.

My Smile

Why does my smile seems to be brighter, and happier 4 years ago compare to today?

What happen to my believing heart, my child-like faith, my God-placed hope?
Is it because people caused my heart to be more skeptical thus it is more difficult to smile simply?
Is it because I failed to believe in God's plan and promises for me anymore?
Or is it due to 'old' age?

Why why why...
I haven't meet the sun face to face for ages.
I haven't 'played' for ages, had fun like I love it to be.
It rains everytime I wanted to.
I ended up in bed sleeping.
Thinking about things I don't want to.

ESPECIALLY GRUMBLING WHY AM I STILL DOING MY DEGREE WHEN I SHOULD HAVE GRADUATE BY NOW IF I HAVE LISTENED TO A*E AND TAKEN THAT ACCELERATED KAPLAN DEGREE WHICH TAKES ONLY 18 MTHS COMPARE TO STUPID MDIS DEGREE WHICH TAKES 36 MTHS AND A PAINFUL LOT OF TRAVELING, AND I FEEL LIKE GIVING UP EVERYTIME BUT KNOWING THIS WAY OUT IS OUT. AND HAVING LECTURERS WHO TALK SO MUCH THINGS I HAVE SIMPLY NOT MUCH INTEREST TO KNOW AND HAVE SIMPLY NO AVAILABLE OUTLET TO APPLY.
WHAT A DRAG! LIFE SIMPLY S*, AND I CAN'T AFFORD TO WORK FULL TIME KNOWING THAT THIRD YEAR CONSISTS OF 70%, AND I CAN'T AFFORD TO FLUNK ANYTHING. AND I AM SIMPLY NOT C* ENOUGH TO HANDLE BOTH FULL TIME WORK AND STUDIES. YET I AM SO WORRIED FOR MY CAREER LIFE THAT IT IS GOING TO HAVE TO BE PUT ON HOLD FOR ONE YEAR, AND HOW AM I GOING TO BE OF MARKET VALUE ONE YEAR LATER, I HAVE NO IDEA. GOD, TELL ME.


Don't forget I am the envy of other people who have simply no financial means to work part-time, so I ought to be thankful. I am lucky. You, Miss Amy Low is considered lucky. So you ought to smile now.

Heart.

The human heart is a funny thing...

We hurt the ones who adore us.
We adore the ones who hurt us.
It is true to a certain extent.
I wish I was less emotional than I really am.

If life is meant to be lived, it is meant to be lived.
No wonder, it is ---.

I should defend the ones I love.

Today H**e helped to 'defend' me. Can sense it.
Almost choke on my laughter when I heard her call him 'the whitest guy'.
Almost melt when I saw the fb message.
Why did I not defend her when I saw the 'b*' who called her an old maid?
Hugged her.
Love her so much.
And also her hug brings so much warmth to me.
Especially when... obviously around.
Forgive & forget?
Yeap.

Remembered the friendship Pr*** extended.
Well, people accuse her. Quite a lot.
Why did I believe the people who accuse her?
I believe in Ja**.
Should I not also believe in Pr***?

As for A*e, all I can say is I gave my best.
She is much too ...
I decided I won't be affected by her comments.
Anyway, my conscious is clear.
I never talked about her behind her back.
Even when people talked negatively about her.
What else can I say?
I've even scolded my sis who attacked her for me.
Simple given up on her.

The whole 'group' of the ex-S?
Kind of sad all of them left.
More affected that they are disillusioned.
I can only say, I need my conviction from the Lord.

I will love T**g and S***y from my heart.
Even when extra pat***** is needed.

And the group in M?
Hmmm...
(zhe shi wo de xin zhong hua, xiang huan hui de xin zhong hua... bu zhi dao neng huan hui ma de xin zhong hua... xi wang neng shi xian de xin zhong hua... dan you mei yong qi mian dui de shi shi...ying wei... xin zhong de shi ji you wo ji zi ming bai... )

Actually........
The birds are crooking again... :)
I like to hear the birds crook.
When they say, follow your heart, you should follow your heart.

This is a post that only I understand.
Because it is not meant to be understood.
Ironically, the person who helped to trigger so much,
Is the person I hate to love. Gun needed please.

In 7 days...

All 'hell' will break loose.
I am going sun tanning with Fen.
Catching Despicable Me with whoever, whatever.
Hitting the gym twice weekly.
And I so don't care, I haven't go Sentosa beach in ages, I am going with whoever, whatever.
And I am so going to go KTV for the first time since 2 years ago... Yes, since 2 years ago!
And I am so excited...

Except that I haven't found any khaki except Ah Fen.

Basically, whoever whatever.....

Being thankful for...

What have I done to deserve such kindness, grace, acceptance, friendship from people?
None.
It is simply favor from God, I guess.

I hope the same will happen to my workplace in future.

Quotes to live by...

Doing everything for God's glory not mine.

Don't compare myself with others. Compare myself with what God has planned for me.

I did not choose God. God choose me.

Do not be discourage or weary because the fruits will come. (Even though I have no idea how the fruits look like.)

Envision growing to be a blessing to others, just as God have blessed me.

Lastly, keep God's word in my heart daily, every moment, every second.

Laugh or cry?

Live your life in such a way that when you enter, the world rejoices, and when you leave, the world cries.
(And not the other way round.)

I am not sure if I have done that for anyone, but I am thankful for someone who did that to me.
After this month, you will be deeply missed, friend.

vision.

My Love?

My conclusion after living for 25 years on earth?

Love story happens only in movies...
Like '50 First Dates', or 'Mr and Mrs Smith'.
But not really in real life.

Well... life's like this.
Perhaps I have absolutely no chemistry with guys whom I even slightly like.
Or maybe my interpersonal skills sucks? I don't think so, and I hope not.
Or maybe I have a look as scary as the nightmare before Christmas so the guys are scared away from me.
And I wonder why the guys I don't really like are always talking to me.
Hearing this from other people and now this is happening to me. Omg!

Either I become a bimbo / bitch and seduce guys... not a chance!
Or I wait until the cows come home for a love story to happen.

And I just keep getting amused looking at every single couple proposing to one another and getting married, and listen to their love story thereafter and keep wondering about mine.

Or maybe I can look at all the couples who ended up quarreling for life and be thankful I have none to fight with.

Anyways, life is not only about my love story isn't it.

Yeap, because I also have a love story with God that have yet to be completed.
I will be having a love story with a career I have yet to fall in love with.
I will be having a love story with a doggie I have yet to get.
(And I am so shocked that Ruth's jack russell is 8 year old... how time flies..)
I will be having a love story with myself, and I will fall in love with myself for being absolutely me.

Yes, I will fall in love with myself for being so true and honest with my own feelings before God, and only He knows exactly every single thing I go through.
Yes, I will fall in love with myself for giving my best shot in every thing I know of (not totally the best, but the best that I can give according to what I already know.)
Yes, I will fall in love with myself for totally submitting myself to God's will for my life as far as I can.
Yes, I will fall in love with myself for being totally absolutely nice to myself.

I guess I am totally in love with me now.
This is my love story. :D

Blog and Msn and Pressure

Blogging is releasing and therapeutic for myself.

But conversing with fellow sister in Christ (the right one) over msn is even better.
Because it encourages me and we fellowship with one another.

It is not easy to find people with similar values, outlook in life, and similar passion in something.
If I find someone like that, I must treasure and grow the friendship.

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Nowadays I dunno what to be amused more by...
People's comments on fb,
or my very amusing iPhone applications..
Some people are really damn daring in whatever they write on fb... I am not that bold... Haha..
As for me and my iPhone, I really is falling in love with iPhone!
Can do online shopping and view gorgeous shoes and clothes online!!
Can download songs & songs & songs!

'stop calling stop calling, i don't wanna hear anymore...'
-telephone, that keeps on ringing...

Anyways, exams is still more impt..
Really screw up last term..
Was distracted, troubled, worried.

This term must pull up socks. 

In good mood...

Thks to dear fellow classy-mates..

A*H for always standg up and speakg up, giving counsel necessarily.
R*R for being excellent in scoldg certain people, and funnily real.
K*L for showg empathy, kindness, maturity in thinking despite havg a tough life, alone yet maintaining a sense of dignity.
K*C for being real, straightforth & truly a 'sight'.
D*O for trying to be the best gentleman he can be, although really worned.


Appreciate them a bunch.
Life does not promise no troubles.
But it sure has its little ways to sweeten times up & invokes humorous moments!

Feeling.........

Feeling...

sorry for a*dy again...
so sweet, today got kueh lapis in the fridge...
how many a*dy can there be in the world man?
sighz...

amused by the couple in the mrt...
there was a malay guy who propose his love to a girl front of me in the mrt train.
was sms-ing when it happens...
didn't know whether siam or what...
the guy so pai-sey...
the gal was most prob taken aback and chuckling to herself...
I was in the middle of it all...
so tried to make the atmosphere lighter by striking a general convo with them...

why is this happening to me man...?!

felt sorry for the guy, because he is so paisey, he hide his face at the mrt window.
thought the gal must be very flattered that someone did that to her, but she is so paisey that cannot talk anymore... poor gal...

if i am her, i will be too stunned for words too...
rmbr what my ldr did in the past when she ask this guy directly in front of me 'xx, you like Amy is it?'
i was so stunned i changed topic immediately...
firstly, it came too fast.
secondly, i wasn't even sure i know him that well...

so what to do in this kind of situation???

perhaps the guy shouldn't have done that in the mrt... not with a third party in between...

I would rather...

Someone made me realized that...

I would rather score high on my walk with God and character, rather than score high on my exams.
I would rather have a few great friends, than a lot of acquaintances.
I would rather be alone and be at peace with myself, than be surrounded by seemingly fun-loving people who have nothing better to do than to gossip and judge others.
I would rather be in the background contented with a simple life, than being an attention seeker in the front row.




Never too late to know...

What happens when I need help...

Awoken by the excruciating stomach abdominal pain.
Loo.
Couldn't feel my fingers anymore.
Numbness.
I thought I couldn't talk also.
Gathered all my energy to shout to sis.

Relief. She heard.
I got drinking water from her.
Drank.
Same. No better.
Prayed for pain to go away.
Never did.
Couldn't feel my head anymore.

Crawl onto room floor.
Lie down on yoga mat.
Sis, 'are you going to die?'
So funny.
'Yes, I am going to die.'
Sis, 'please don't die....'
............


Sis called father to come bring me to the doctors.
Never been more relieved that father is just around, working at Jurong.
He was here in just less than an hour, perhaps?
I was already much better.
He cooked porridge and I fall into a deep sleep..... zzzzzz


Woke up at 330pm and ate porridge.
Contemplated to skip class.
Help! Needed help with signing attendance..
Names flashes across.
Funny how usually these names are always the stable and nice people around in class.



Today, I am saved.
Thanks to my angels...

Just as well

Come to think of it...
It is just as well that I do not have a fantastic career and money and car right now.
5 years ago, I told myself I am going to be independent, career-minded and live by myself.
If I tell this to anyone, who will believe me?
I don't look exactly like an independent person.
At least I don't think I look like one, to others.
For I got terminated by my previous boss because he said I am not independent enough.
What the world is wrong with him? Do I really appear like that to him?
Sometimes I don't know if there is something wrong with me, or something wrong with the world.

Anyway, 5 years later, I still have nothing to own.
No possessions.
Nothing.
But I have one thing - I have God.

Just as well that so far the jobs offered to me are always temporary.
Just as well that the PA contract job didn't fall through.
Just as well that I have plenty of time at home to think about my life.
Because God keep talking to me.
No one else is.

In the quietness and stillness, you are there God.
Always there.

If I got a fantastic career right now, I will cloud God out of my life again.
I am sure.
For I am always so easily distracted.
God, help me!

Throne

MOrning woke up with this word ringing in my heads:

"Who is on the throne of my life?"

Remembering the words of Claudia when she spoke this a couple of weeks ago in service.
Although I will acknowledge Christ as the center of my life, how many times did other things take this throne?

Like when I place my agenda as of higher importance, then my agenda became my god.
When I place my relationships with others of higher importance than with my God, then my relationships with others became my god.
Or when I place my revision times above my time with God, my exams subtly also became my god.
When I place my own leisure times above my time with God, myself became my god.

Funny how easy it is to cloud God out of everyday life if not careful.
How easy it is to sing 'YOu are the center of my life', and then next moment, de-throne God with my own will.

It is so not easy to remember this 24/7...

Thinking about the dearest person I have living with me next room, I know she has never intended to have God in her life.
She doesn't need to because everyone always give in to her anyway.
She doesn't have a lack.
The truth is, I don't have a lack either.
But I want God in my life.
Not because so that my life will be more blessed.
But because I want to know God more.
I want to fall in love with God.
I want to know God's love, God's goodness, which never fails.

Emotions, People, Decisions

I tell myself at the beginning of today that I shall just focus on studies alone.
Don't think about anything else at all!
And I remember the sms Lirong send me yesterday - Amy, don't think so much. Just focus on studies.

Easy to say... sometimes very hard to put into application.

Because, I realized I am born with emotions.
When something stir my heart, I will surely think about that thing.

Morning breakfast with Sharon
We talked about Toy Story 3 again.
I shared that I love the 3 peas in a pod from Toy Story...
She squealed! I got excited... And I thought about whether I should search for 3-peas-in-a-pod from the shopping center... maybe action city...
Think think...

Noon sms from father.
"Shall we meet for dinner?"
Okay, he misses us again.
Sure, will meet him for dinner. After all, he must be working so hard that he just wants to see us for the evening.
Why not...?
So, I think about father again...

Noon revision at Starbucks.
Sharon came after a while.
Broke the news that she is breaking up with Andy for good.
Heard about that a few years ago already.
Now it is really real.
I feel so sorry for Andy.
He is just too nice to sis... now this thing happens, I really is expecting Andy to break down... Sigh...
But seriously, it is better now or never.
Think about it, Andy and sis is intellectually so far apart.
It will be a huge mountain of problems if they got married.
Really.

I think about my own 'missing link' aka life partner as well.
Who? When?
I thought this person A is ok... until... I got negative feedback about him.
I thought that person B is ok... until... I got pissed / hurt by some comments / actions.
I thought maybe person C is better... until... I got tired of the 'waiting game'.
Think think.
Things seems so bleak sometimes.
I thought about those who are married, apparently happily.
But it is not really happily as well.
Sigh.
Life has to be better than this.

Midway through revision, I surfed across Shiyan's facebook.
And I thought about the 'decision' she announced a few days ago.
I thought about my 'decision' made a few days ago as well.
Is this really a good 'decision' made?
Should I go ahead with this decision or discard it?
Ponders.
Think think.


Evening time, I thought about person B again.
He's trying to get my attention? Mum says...
Really...?
But need to be so overwhelming or not?

Sighz....
See the long train of thoughts that flood through my mind in a single day.
If only I can stop thinking about all these issues... and start thinking about exams only...
If only I could!!!!
Urghhh!!!

A little bit more

One step away from victory.



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Never Forget

Burn it on my heart, Lord.

I shall guard my relationship with you from today onwards!

Although the heart is willing, sometimes the flesh is weak.
How many times did other concerns / procrastination gets the better of me?

The living word of God.
Freshness. Newness.
Never stifle it.
Let it come.
Holy Spirit come and fill me.

Toy Story 3

Fellowship.
Ruth, Lirong, Sherry.

Weee...! The ultimate chill out / enjoyment before revision...

Although I didn't really think the movie plot is really great (as opposed to what sis thought), I thought Ken and Barbie in the movie is damn cute! Ken is G**-damn gay, muscular, sweet-talker, & it was simply fascinating to see how he invoke the lust in Barbie. And no wonder Sharon was commenting on it. I can fully understand now. Either love him or hate him, although it is hard to hate, really. So love him but just don't admit it.

I like especially the little girl at the end of the story which depicts such an innocence, that simply captures the attention of the elder brother. I thought about how we should sometimes just trust in God's sovereign goodness, mercy and grace and live freely, without worries and concern. Having a quiet sense of trust in the Lord that everything will be alright. Things are not as serious as it seems sometimes. Relax!

Life should be as colorful as Toy Story, really.

Give me some colors, God!

Old friends are better.

Some.

Went to Edwin's wedding today.
A 'boy' I know since about 5 years ago perhaps?
Suddenly, he got attached, and suddenly he is married, today!
I still cannot believe it.
Time doesn't wait for people...
And I feel old now.
For I am 1 year older than him.
So, he getting married makes me feel old... :S

Good thing is, he doesn't change after he got married.
He is still so crappy! Thank God! :D
At least I still have a crappy friend in him.

Catch up with an 'old' shepherd aka lao aunty, and shared about life.
Learn about one important thing:
It is possible to neglect the being (and don't even realize it myself).
Everyone can look ok on the outside, but on the inside full of struggles/disappointments.
That is why, it is important to always look to God for comfort and strength.
No amount of cg programs / services / people can really help you for this.

Problems will always exist.
Sometimes it is good that they exist so that we don't get too comfortable.
We learn to look to God.

Situations will still remain the same.
It cannot change for we are just stuck with the same people and issues day in day out.
But I can change my own attitude and response.

When I think about all the wonderful leaders in church who have been serving years in years out, I am suddenly full of admiration for them.
They have been doing it stably for years, and I doubt I will even hear them say, 'I quit!'.
Some are doing it behind the scenes and until I ask them today, I wouldn't even know the sacrifices they have done!
Therefore, they really deserve something. Rewards in heaven.

Happy Father's Day!

It was Sunday.
Woke up to rush down for service.
No time for make-up, the usual girl things... whatever, who cares.
Though it is good to take good care of ourselves, but 1 Pet 3:3-4 emphasizes inward beauty isn't it so?
Therefore, to me and whoever who cares to read this blog, Be secure! :D
Besides, it takes a lot of effort and time to put on make up everyday.
So, just save time and money.

At the bus stop, I spend a really long time waiting for the bus.
Meanwhile, I looked around and saw two couples walking pass the bus stop.
This is the picture of the first one I saw - the old lady having leg pain and limping, while the old man is holding her hands and walking along.



How sweet...
I wonder how many couples last like that until that age.
I think about myself now, and I thank God I can still walk properly.
Can run, can swim, can jump.
If something happen to me, and I started limping, who is going to take care of me?
Unless there is a second Joshua Lim in the world, but he is already taken! Hahaha...

And then, minutes later, I saw an opposite sight.
It was also a couple, but the old man was walking IN FRONT of the old lady, while the old lady and trying her best to walk in front.
Of course, it is not good to judge people at first sight.
But I wonder, why couldn't the old man slow down to walk beside the old lady?
Is it that difficult to slow down and just patiently walk beside her?
Maybe my expectations is too high.
Or maybe I have been seeing too many good examples of good husband in the church, so this has become my first reaction.
I guess my future BF or husband must learn to be a patient person then.

Well, enuf said, I went for service and was reminded of Father's Day.
Had a sudden impulse to wish Michael a Happy Father's Day!
Will be doing that later... hopefully it won't make him feel old suddenly.

Besides Michael, dinner was the real Father's Day dinner with my real earthly father.
We had food at Dian Xiao Er and we took a family photo together.
(I remember the words Shiyan told me last year: Amy, you must take a photo with your father and your loved ones because you never know when they will never be with you anymore.)





It was a simple dinner.
But, I thank God for the many years of sweat and blood that my father put in to bring us up financially.
How he guide me and my sister in some of our decisions, encourage us, and being responsible always to ensure we are really well fed.
Generally, my sister and I had a fairly good life because of father's hard work.
It's been a good 25 years.
It is time he can really shake leg.
In a few years time.





Anyways, it was shopping time after dinner!








Girls, who can resist products on offer?! :D